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OK guys, after the mishap last night when no Canadians posted download links, as they didn't know it would air, I was only able to see 5x06 this afternoon when it debuted on GlobalTv's site. Now as an American, the only was this is possible is by use of a proxy. Proxies are basically IP addresses based somewhere else. To use them, you need two bits of information: The IP address and the port. Now I strongly suggest using Firefox, because that's the easiest way to make this work. First, you must download a Firefox add-on called "FoxyProxy." Second, search google "canadian proxy list." The kind of list you need is like this: http://nntime.com/proxy-country/Canada-01.htm
When you have downloaded the add on and found a suitable proxy (IP with matching port), go into FoxyProxy, and click "Add new Proxy." DO NOT DO ANYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT I SAY HERE. Copy the IP address you've chosen into the "Host or IP Address" blank. Then copy the port that goes with it into the "Port" blank. If you want to, go to the General tab, and name the proxy you are using. Next, look at the top of the FoxyProxy window and click the dropdown menu that says "Completely disable FoxyProxy" and find "Use proxy "New Proxy (or whatever the name you made) for all URLS." You are now ready to watch Bones! Go to GlobalTV.com and click the "Videos" tab. Look to your left and find Bones in the list of shows, and click the only episode shown. Click play when the site moves back up to the video player, and an ad will play before it shows (they'll happen every once in a while, like on hulu). If the video is slower than you'd like, find another proxy and start over. Happy watching!!!
Anna

Well, I turned 20 day before yesterday...if you're reading this you prolly know already, but wth...
Basically I just wanted you guys to know that I'm still here, etc.
AND
I have improved my icon-making abilities. Although my way is a bit round-about, it's the best I can do as someone who refuses to pay for Photoshop or any other good photo editor out there. I'll give you a little preview, as I'm much too tired to make any more, but I promise I'll make more soon.
Enjoy!





Love you all!!
Anna

Heyyy the few people who actually read this,

It's been a while, I know. I've been busy moving out of my dorm, going all the way to Pennsylvania to pick up my sister, and trying to find a job. The job thing isn't going so well, btw. I applied for a position at my old school's day care, and they won't call me back to schedule a background check. A flipping FIFTY DOLLAR background check. I don't have that much money, WHICH IS WHY I NEED THE JOB! You'd think that since I've known the principal there since I was, idk, 2 years old, that I wouldn't need it. Oh well.

ANYWAYS onto more interesting matters (notice I said interesting rather than important - I'm not soft in the head :P ). Since we last chatted, the last few episodes of Bones season 4 aired. WOW is all I can say. Fake or not, that B&B sex was HOT (tehehehe I'm Dr. Seuss!). To sum it up, Brennan asked Booth to father her child, but not in the "jump your bones" (pun definitely intended) kind of way. The "go to the bank and make a deposit" kind of way. This in turn aggravated a pre-existing tumor hitchin' a ride in his frontal lobe. So when he went to make his "deposit," he hallucinates Stewie from Family Guy. Now, I knew this was going to happen, we were told way in advance, and I LOVED it. But the normal viewer isn't totally in the know about the actual problem until he sees Stewie again when they are interrogating the murderer in their case. Brennan forces him to go to the hospital, and the last thing we see in that episode before the finale is Booth and Brennan (he asked her to come with him) rushing into the OR.
Which leads us into the finale. It was 99% dream/hallucination/meeting of the minds/whatever you want to call it. I'm not sure what to call it, really. But it took place in both the imaginations of Booth and Brennan. Brennan, I assume, is writing bits on her laptop, awaiting Booth's awakening (he is in a coma due to a bad reaction to the anesthesia), and other bits are Booth filling in the gaps he hears of what she is writing (maybe she read out loud?). This is all speculation, really. But onto the...well, whatever it is. We first hear the beginnings of a voiceover by Hodgins (of all people), that continues to pop up at different times during this...alternate reality. The first thing we see is Brennan coming to bed to an asleep (and quite sexy) Booth. Many speculate (analyzing the difference in alarm clocks and such) that this scene takes place later, in real life. I really just want to wait and see. But what we DO see is this Booth and Brennan having some VERY hot sex which, real or not, does it for me for now. The next morning we meet the couple, happily married, and owning a nightclub called The Lab. We then learn that a murder occurred in that club the previous night, news delivered by the (now) Detectives Saroyan and Booth (Cam and Jared). We then meet the employees of Brennan and Booth: Wendell (doorman/security guard), Fisher (chef), Daisy (coat girl I think), Vincent (DJ) Zack (Brennan's assistant), Sweets (bartender), Angela (hostess), and Caroline (the club's lawyer). After a very entertaining batch of interrogations, we meet Clark's alter-ego (C-Sync, I think it's spelled), some rapper. And Arastoo is a Persian out to buy the club. Max is a crooked councilman out for money, and apparently the Gravedigger is a Gangster. We also get a little cameo from Grayson, Angela's ex-husband, playing the gang-banger brother of C-Sync. But really not complicated at all (haha).
They all try and cover up for B&B because they think they did it, hiding evidence and obstructing justice, etc. We get some good B&B kissing action, and we got to hear Sweets (John Francis Daley!!!!!) sing in a band called Gormogon (in reality John's band called Dayplayer - they rule!). And the club rocks out with a visit from Motley Crue. We then learn that Jared was the killer, apparently the victim was after Brennan in the first place, but we're not sure if that's why he did it. We end with a cute little scene in which the Brennan in that reality tells her Booth that she's pregnant, and they have an "awww" moment.
And then we're kicked back into reality. We see Booth in a hospital bed, and Brennan typing away at her computer, mumbling to herself what she is writing. We realize that most of the voiceover we heard during the "aww" moment was what she was writing, with only a few omissions and alterations. It speaks of the sacrifices we make when we love someone, and the rewards we get in return. She pauses, reading through what she wrote, before deleting the whole kit-and-caboodle. We then see Booth waking up, and Brennan running to his side. She explains to him what happened, and he is repeating "it was so real" over and over, until we get the three words that stopped the hearts of millions of B&B fans around the world: "Who are you?"
Needless to say I was in shock for quite a while after that. BUUUT recent events have given us hope. Fox released a season 5 press release, and NOTTA ONCE did it mention amnesia. And past that, an even more recent article has Hart Hanson, the wonderful creator of Bones, wishing he could've made it more obvious that Booth was not saying that to mean "I have now idea who you are," but "Which Brennan are you? What memories of us are real?" As in shock as I was, I never doubted HH. He hasn't disappointed yet, and I know he knows what he's doing.

WOW I didn't mean to give that detailed of an account of the finale!!! Sorry guys :S

I'll condense the other two BIG finales in together. First was Castle. I knew what happened was gonna happen, it was kinda obvious, I just didn't want it to. Beckett, an NYPD Detective and Castle's muse, lost her mother some years ago. She was murdered. A few episodes ago we learned this, and we see Castle begin looking at her file. But then we don't hear about it again until the finale comes. Castle has called in one of his book sources, a well-renowned Pathologist, to take a look at the file. He tells Castle that, not only was it NOT random like Beckett was told all those years ago, but it wasn't the first like it. Castle asks Beckett if she ever thought of reopening the case, and she basically tells him that if he looks, they are over. Castle decides to tell her what he found anyways, risking the shortlived partnership he's thoroughly enjoyed. We end the first "season" (idk if 7 episodes counts as a full season) with Castle telling Beckett they need to talk, and that it's about her mother's murder. I expect to come back in the fall to a lonely Castle with no Beckett to pick on for a few episodes, but I doubt they'll be apart for long.
With Grey's, DAMN. Just DAMN. It would take too long to explain. Izzie with amnesia, then coding. George joining the army then being pummeled by a bus. Post-It note wedding. We have NO IDEA if George or Izzie survived. I was hyperventilating. There's really nothing else to say.


The last thing I will bore you with is a video I made yesterday about the Bones finale. You guys know I was an ER fan for quite a while. Well that's where I heard this version of Somewhere Over the Rainbow for the first time. It was when Mark Grenne died. I bawled, of course. But I was revisiting that clip the night before, and realized that the lyrics and style matched the finale perfectly. So here it is. The black-and-white is real life, while color is the dream/psychic link/whatever. And yes, I did get that idea from the Wizard of Oz. I just thought since I was using the song it would be a cool throw-back to it.




Find more videos like this on BonesTube

Find more videos like this on BonesTube

I'll address the important stuff first. Yesterday I had a visit with my therapist, and my parents came with me. They usually don't, obviously, I'm 19 and they can't anymore unless I give them permission, but this needed to happen. For most of my life I've had trouble with making myself do things, initiating actions, you know? Last semester it got bad to the point where I wasn't going to class the majority of the time. It's much different than being lazy, trust me. This semester I was doing much better, until I slipped and dug myself into a hole when I stopped going to Psychology. Long story short, I missed a couple of days because the teacher does not take role and puts the notes online, and that led to anxiety at the idea of going back, which led to avoidance of the subject, and lying to myself and my family. It killed me every time I told my mom that the class was going well, and this past weekend when the subject was brought up, I got tired of it all and just got it off my chest. Needless to say Mom was very upset, and I don't blame her for that. What was worse is it was right before I was going to go back, and I hate leaving my parents with such a big problem unsolved. I tried my best to assure Mom that I was determined to change the way that I did things, which I was and still am, and we left each other in a little better spirits. But I was angry that I had yet again disappointed my parents; I wanted so badly to either find a reason that I acted like this, or just find a way to change it altogether, so we set up an appointment with my therapist. So yesterday we met up there, walked in and sat down. And all was revealed.
Apparently, due to my anxiety, I have something called Executive Function Disorder. Although it's not widely accepted yet, there are quite a few psychologists out there that accept it as a valid problem, especially one caused or a part of other disorders. Executive functions are (according to minddisorders.com) "a set of cognitive abilities that control and regulate other abilities and behaviors. Executive functions are necessary for goal-directed behavior. They include the ability to initiate and stop actions, to monitor and change behavior as needed, and to plan future behavior when faced with novel tasks and situations. Executive functions allow us to anticipate outcomes and adapt to changing situations. The ability to form concepts and think abstractly are often considered components of executive function." That pretty much describes everything I have problems with. When I draw, I have to draw something I've seen before, I can't just come up with something or doodle. And when I know I need to do something, I can't make myself do it on my own most of the time, I have to be pushed to do it. Although most people would say "just do it!," it's much harder than it sounds. There is more to it than I have described, but I could go on for pages, and you don't want to read that. Basically, I just wanted to express my relief that I'm not alone with my problems.

And now for a quick vent. Last night I made a video on my Youtube account (nerdgurl89, look me up!). I was comparing the shows Bones and Castle, because Monday's episode of Castle not only contained an actor who played a suspect in both shows, but the song at the end had also been at the end of an episode of Bones (there are other similarities, but you get the idea). People all over Youtube used clips from shows, right? I put the clips of the shows with the song back to back, and at the end I put a disclaimer. You'd think that would do the trick. WRONG! Before anyone can see it, they send me an email saying that my video has a copyright violation. REALLY! What about all those people who post WHOLE EPISODES online?! Why aren't they going after them instead of people like me, FANS who just want to show how much they love a show?! It's people like me who keep the ratings up and keep the show on the air! WTF?! Youtube has gone down the hole now that it's started not allowing people to use clips and songs...pretty soon the only thing we can do is talk to the camera, which was totally NOT the original point of the site.
Ok, rant over.

Love you all!
Anna

Bones:


Twilight (I've done a lot more, these are just my favorites) :





If you guys (if anyone sees these) use any of them, please give me credit :) thanks

As you know, I'm a huge Bones fan. So much so that I stayed up last night (Wednesday) to watch the most recent episode that the Canadians get a day early. The episode itself was wonderful, it showed a lot that we didn't know about Cam's past, and gives us an idea of how Brennan might come to the conclusion that (SPOILERS to follow, pretty much the rest of the paragraph!) she wants children. But what really got me was the promo for next week! (link and possibly a clip at the bottom). First there's a part where Booth pins Brennan up against a wall! The look on her face is priceless! I can't wait to see what caused it and how she reacts! And then there was the part I'm looking forward to most, which is them locked in the resonance chamber. I'm excited to see how Booth gets them out, finally proving he isn't stupid (we all knew that, cept Brennan). And man does Emily have a set of lungs! I got chills when she screamed. And after I read some comments on the website where I saw the promo, I rewound and found that in the last little clipof them in the chamber, the both have nosebleeds! That can't be good for Booth's upcoming health problem. But really, all of this is just making it harder for me to wait until thursday! I can't wait for the next week when they'll be two new episodes instead of just one!
Promo:


Ok, on to a more melancholy subject. Today, an era ended. Since around 1994 when the show first began, I started watching ER with my parents. Well, I tried, it was a little later when they actually let me consistently watch it each week. But it was a part of my life from an early age at any rate. For many years I watched it every week, looking forward to each new episode, loving characters like Carter, Benton, Haleh, and Greene. I cried my eyes out when Mark Greene died, and was happy and sad a the same time when Ross and Carol left with their twin girls. Then people really started leaving in droves, and eventually the only originals left were Carter, Haleh, Jerry, and Frank (and maybe one or two others). When Abby, not an original but still and older favorite, left with Luca and their son, it really just came to the point where I didn't know the characters anymore. I stopped watching 2 or 3 seasons ago, but it still held a special place in my heart.
Recently I found out that the show was ending this spring, and that they were bringing back some of the old hats to send it off right. I watched a few, wanting to catch a glimpse of the characters I missed so much. Susan Lewis came back, as did Elizabeth Corday and Kerry Weaver. Benton had been back for a couple of episodes, and a few episodes previous they had shown Carol and Ross getting along wonderfully at another hospital. Carter was opening a medical facility with the vast funds his family had been hoarding for all these years, and he got to see his wife again (there was even hope that he might get her to stay this time).
What first struck me was the fact that after so many seasons, they had brought back the old opening credits, adding in some of the new characters, and reusing the old clips for the old characters. They brought back the old feeling that ER used to posses, focusing more on the medicine and less on the tangled personal lives of the doctors, another reason why I had quit watching. They even had Carter playing basketball, something I really missed from the good ole' days! And they showed us Benton's son Reece, who we only knew as a small deaf 2-year-old the last we had seen him. It was weird hearing about Corday's daughter Ella being 9! I felt so old, I remembered when Ella was born!
But my favorite was near the end. Mark Greene's daughter Rachel came to County to apply as a med student there. When I saw her my eyes teared up a bit, and it only got better as the episode went on. I felt as if, seeing as Mark was dead and couldn't come back for the final episode, that he was there through Rachel. And the episode ended with Carter teaching her, like her father had taught him 15 years previous. And it ended just as the first had ended, with the ER going about its business, giving us all the promise that County would continue doing what it did best.
I cried, needless to say. I bawled, really. but 15 seasons is a LONG time for a show to run, and I guess it was time to give others the chance to shine. I plan to catch up, watch the old episodes and maybe even some of the ones from the time I wasn't watching. Thank you ER for being a part of my life for so long, and rest in peace Michael Crichton.

On TwilightLexicon.com, they've changed it to LexiKalebCon...apparently, they've given themselves over to the TwiGuy, and are no longer interested in posting news not related to him. Quite funny, actually.

 Hey guys!
Today's been pretty boring. English was fun, I'm my teacher's favorite student :) Apparently she thinks I'm a good writer, which is something I'm just not used to hearing. But she wants to publish the first paper I wrote for her! It was an analysis of the piece written for performance at Obama's inauguration (Air and Simple Gifts by John Williams), and I compared aspects of the piece to Obama's speech that day as well as what his administration represents. I didn't think much of it when I wrote it, but she said it was really unique and I could get awards and stuff for it!
But anyway, something other school: I was checking out the Paramore website today and decided to see where they were playing , to see if it was anywhere near me. Turns out they are playing in Atlanta, GA on June 5th. I REALLY want to go, and my mom said she'd pay 40$ of the 80$ that the standing-room only tickets cost, but I don't want to go alone. I posted a plea on Facebook, but I'm going to ask here as well. If ANYONE is willing to go with me, if you like Paramore enough to pay that, or your parents are just awesome enough to pay all if, I would be eternally grateful! It's just no fun going to a concert by yourself! 
Ok on to my current obession: Bones! I've been reading fanfiction for years, and I have just now started reading Bones fanfics. I've been thinking, and have tried once before giving up, of writing a Bones fic. I have a Twilight one up that I started last semester, but that I haven't really updated in a while, if anyone wants to take a look I'll post that link. And if I decide to write a Bones fic I'll totally post that link too. Oh, and I'm so excited because there's a new episode of Bones on Thursday! With any luck I'll be able to see it on Wednesday online because of the awesome Canadians and the greatness of ForensicMama who runs the Bones Spoilers Blog (bonesspoilers.blogspot.com/). That's the most awesome website in the entire world! But only if you enjoy knowing what's going to happen before it does :) I don't have the patience to wait, especially with the stupid delays they've been having over at Fox (grrr), so I enjoy it :)
Tomorrow I've got one class, Symphonic Band, and here's hoping it goes better than Monday. Monday we played a piece that required me to play English Horn, but wouldn't you know it that was also the day that not only the English Horn was missing, but so was our oboe teacher. And I know we're going to work on the same piece tomorrow because it is the longest of the pieces we're working on. 
Well that seems like a satisfactory first post! I hope someone got something from my pointless ramblings :)

Much love!
Anna